Friday, November 11, 2005

Saturday, September 24, 2005


i so dumb.

so jan was here from the yukon (aka yellowknife) for a few days and we totally went to wonderland again. her, robin, wasim & i. had pretty much as much fun as i did the last time, thanks to wasim actually going on the wet rides with me. jan and robin were pussies, but they did enuff and it was good to see them. :)

a few days later, jan took me to ikea and it was empty so we wizzed thru it but i still needed more time to look at kitchen stuff, but she hadta leave, so i called tim and he reluctantly came to meet me, so we looked around, wizzed thru the kitchen stuff :( but found a nice new lil coffee table. so come over to see it. also we ate there and that's always good.. mmm manager's special. ;)


Thursday, September 22, 2005

I Am A: Chaotic Good Human Fighter Bard

Chaotic Good characters are independent types with a strong belief in the value of goodness. They have little use for governments and other forces of order, and will generally do their own things, without heed to such groups.

Humans are the 'average' race. They have the shortest life spans, and because of this, they tend to avoid the racial prejudices that other races are known for. They are also very curious and tend to live 'for the moment'.

Primary Class:
Fighters are the warriors. They use weapons to accomplish their goals. This isn't to say that they aren't intelligent, but that they do, in fact, believe that violence is frequently the answer.

Secondary Class:
Bards are the entertainers. They sing, dance, and play instruments to make other people happy, and, frequently, make money. They also tend to dabble in magic a bit.

Find out What D&D Character Are You?, courtesy ofNeppyMan (e-mail)

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

you win some, you lose some

so it appears my last real blog was sometime in the middle of july.. so i figure i'll update everyone from them up til now, if that is at all possible. sorry for the lack of postings, but like i've said many times, if i miss a week, it's all over.
note: most of this is patched up from emails i've sent out.

Middle of July
caught up with reen and the gang (total reunion), started a trend of some funky cookies, reen didn't take so well to them and puked. twice.

had a nice long weekend on the 20th up at arrowhead lake with my sis, her hubby and his bro + gf. had an awesome time. the weather was kinda shitty but we enjoyed ourselfes nonetheless. especially when the rowdy and extremely loud teens got SURVED by the camp police. managed to lose another swiss army knife again, which is no good.

on the 25th went to wonderland with a bunch of ppl from work and matt. it was only $5 for entry and lunch, and i had such a good time i really wanna go again (see later).
most of u know this already but the one shitty thing that also happened the night before was that i got mugged by 2 black dudes on their bikes and they took my ipod, but that was all they wanted. wonderland was really good for my mood. feel free to give me money for my new ipod fund (maybe a nano!!!)

in a sad but comforting bit of news, i lost julia to home office, but now she's making more money and is pretty much inspiration for me to leave asap.

ended up winning the harry potter costume contest and won an indigo $50 gc! (going straight to my nano fund)

lost karen for a month to the u s of a, and also lost the ability to see my parents in the same room

lost lorette to her taking some well deserved time off to fend off some sickies.

switched to gmail for good and am loving it! i don't like yahoo anymore, i had that email for maybe like 8 years and it's crazy for junk mail. but i love gmail!

went to a fun beachbunnies party at dg's place. loads of wet fun.

Sometime in August
matt had his housewarming and it was loads of fun. snuck into the big pool across the street at 5am for a soothing dip. a godsend in the middle of the summer. almost saw eddy naked. thank GOODness i had my glasses off. ;-)

had a big gay night with the boiz and enjoyed some good drinks and other goodies. trust me it was memorable.

had a great idea about making a blogzine type thing which went nowhere but is still floating around in ideaspace. maybe something will come out of it sometime.

totally dying without my ipod.

kept seeing this guys' art around, apparently he teaches illustration at ocad and graduated from there in 1991. he's purdy amazing, check him out:

ran into maria at value village with matt and bought some stuff. matt left his shuffle but they found it and we saw it just in time. helped maria ride all her junk home and hung out a bit with her and frank. they is kewl ppls and we will hang out more. oh yes.

saw chris murphy at walmart, then a few weeks later at a free joel plaskett concert at harbourfront.

fully switched to firefox, no longer using ie. some things are still iffy, but after really reading about the browser wars, i know who i should be supporting.

watched sin city with some funky cookies and it was A-mazing. the most intense experience i've had in a long time. well since doing it with kill bill anyhow.. which is just about the best movie ever.

matt wasim and i thought it would be hilarious if there was a car called "the anus" and what you would say about it. things like "i rode my anus to work today" or "i'll pick you up in my anus" or "my anus has a lot of trunk space" or "someone rear-ended my anus today" or "my anus left black streaks on the road" etc. let's just say we had yet another funky night edit:and juraj had no idea what the hell we were talking about but he laughed nonetheless.

oh also that night of the joel plaskett thing, we went to wasim's after and i rode my bike home from his place, and it took me so long and i was so achey and tired! but it was fun. maybe i'll do that again. or not.

tim started a film festival job that pretty much ends this week, but it was a good run and we had a van for a while which was good. i'm renaming him timinivan for the time being.

had a really weird and creepy dream that woke me 2am cause i was kinda scared. something about me and a group (including a couple of moms) hanging out somewhere and a ghost appearing and scaring the shite out of everyone, but then we went somewhere else and a poltergeist thing totally attacked one of the moms and we were all screaming trying to get away.. and then i woke up and when i went back to sleep i was back in the dream but this time i was on some 2nd floor house balcony and i saw a small trex coming towards us and thought "this isn't real" but the closer it got, the more real it became until i was backing up slowly into the house and it totally climbed into the balcony and i hadta shut the door behind it while we all ran away. FREAKY.

went to the busker fest with rhodadendron on the last weekend of august and we got gelato and also juggled some red balls in the street. it was cute!

fucked up wordpress for a while and had it fixed by pat by this point. yay pat! yay i haven't touched it once.

It was a rainy September.
went to a funeral service for marco, lorette's ex-husband. the guy will be missed, that's for sure. it was an interesting night.

got tickets for the go! team and metric at some point. excited!

got an amazing deal with my phone. call me anytime between 3pm and 7am and it's pretty much unlimited. :-)

redyed my hair black. bye bye white hair. (for a while)

looked around for an lcd monitor and pretty much found some good deals. it was still more than i wanted to spend so i looked around on toronto.craigslist: really good local buy & sell, one in pretty much every city. in the end i found an amazing 17" monitor for $30! worlds better than my old monitor... which if anyone wants, lemme know, it's still sitting here. it's a 15" piece of shit.

went to the film festival opening night gala last night with timivan. we were there til 2. i got purdy drunk; i think i was even started talking to some guy standing next to me, i thought it was tim and i was like "duhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i'll take the glass of cherries" and he was like "excuse me?" OOOPS. he was a black bald guy, i guess the corner of my eye caught the flash of bald head. thankfully switched my 7am shift the next morning as i was a bit HO. thanks claire!

had a sneaky dee's/cloak and dagger/and no-t.o. @thymeless night. it was really fun. i had some stella at sneaky's (i think i'm warming up to beer) and then a stoner conversation with kanishka and ben. no-t.o. was so great, matt, dg+ femaledg, + we saw julia and mel there and fucking danced our asses off until i think 3am. they played this song. download it.

OH beginning of the month i saw bill who visited from france. it was great to see him again, and there was an odd moment where he pulled out a joing and we got real high and i was trying to act all normal for rob's sake but rob denies i was high at all, which kinda pisses me off, in a haha kinda way. HAHA. i can't believe that crazy french pot.

saw everything is illuminated with reen at the film festival, it was good but the book was better. DUH.

tim's laptop has a key stuck on it or something so whenever the ibeam goes into a field it just does this ////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// it's super fun. so he's been taking my keyboard at nights. i wake up in the morning for work and the keyboard is not there, and in a moment of panic i flash back to highschool when my mom used to hide the keyboard from me because i would use the computer too much. oh my god. those were the days.

went to goodwill with dg and i found a really nice pair of jeans for $7. OH YES. also trivial pursuit for $2. speaking of which, another day last week, i went to jumbo with dg and mg (that's matt) and rhoda and after we thrift shopped a bit and then ended up at bishop and belcher and we played trivial pursuit cause they had it in the booth. anyhow we kinda got loud and crazy and pretty much the answer to every question was "MY PENIS" or "PENIS" or "I LOVE PENIS" and then finally one of my questions was "What does a man have when he is diagnosed with diphallic derata?" and the answer was totally "TWO PENISES" hahahaha. i kill me.

ok so we FINALLY had a film clubbing night (not to be confused with seal clubbing, equally fun) and rachel presented us with "If...". An early brittish film about anarchy, rebellion, and all sorts of other whiney shit. we all agreed that whether we liked it or not, it was kinda good for at least a discussion into why people feel rebelious and unjustified, and if anything it helped me to spit&shine my bullshit skills.

another fun thing, everyone needs to see these now, if u haven't. they are spoofs/redo's of the old gijoe bits that followed the episodes, about safety and knowing is half the battle and all that shit. they are hilarious! note ice, reggae, pork sandwiches and the buzz lightyear one. hahahaha oh shit.

and now we're at TONITE!
this is the last night tim has the van, so i thought i'd take my 2 boxes of books to try to sell them off. the first place offered me pretty much $1 a book and i was like PFFT i could get more elsewhere, so he pretty much said "i'm not offended if u take them elsewhere but prolly dont bother coming back cause i only want this pile and even if you sell one the deal is off" so i went to like 5 more places and pretty much everyone offered me less than that and i sold like maybe 15 books for a total of $13 and i shoulda taken the first guy's offer but oh well, live and learn.

I THINK I'M DONE! yes i am.

ps. happy birthday nintendo 8bit! you're my best friend.


Friday, September 09, 2005

I think Nes is the deodorant

Nes tells me that nerds apparently read this blog. So maybe some of them might be interested in this.

Saturday, August 27, 2005

Ray & Nes over tea

11:31:31 AM ray: here's my plan
11:31:31 AM nes: go for it
11:31:42 AM nes: mhmm
11:32:21 AM ray: albert once said, showing me his passport photo, that he dressed up and made himself look old fashioned on purpose.
11:32:36 AM ray: in fact, he made up an entire personality around this photo:
11:32:39 AM nes: uhuh
11:32:59 AM ray: a different name for this shipping tycoon from 1930s shanghai
11:33:10 AM ray: who led a glamorous, itinerant life
11:33:54 AM ray: meanwhile, check out this bicycle poloing
11:33:55 AM ray:
11:34:42 AM ray: and from there i started exploring the dandyist-dressed up people who use it as a sort of anarchist tool for overturning the bland world around us
11:34:48 AM nes: lol that's hilarious
11:35:05 AM ray: i showed it to bon and we talked about it until 2 in the morning
11:35:10 AM ray: it was wonderful
11:35:56 AM ray: here's the website for the London-based Chapism movement
11:35:57 AM ray:
11:36:34 AM ray: they hold annual "Civilize the City" events that function as art-demonstrations (in both senses of demonstrations)
11:36:52 AM ray: now, how do I fit into all of this?
11:37:17 AM ray: part of what they make fun of is the actual old-fashioned british conservatism.
11:37:43 AM ray: but they use old-fashioned conservatism in order to critique present-day complacency
11:38:31 AM ray: but how do i do it? am i heir to british stodginess?
11:38:47 AM ray: what will people recognize in me?
11:39:02 AM nes: this last one u sent looks more american than brit
11:39:21 AM nes: "give three-piece a chance" <- brilliant
11:39:37 AM ray: it's difficult to say just what is american and british giving that people'll draw from each other and confuse things, don't you think?
11:39:37 AM nes: ppl already think ur a dandy so no worries
11:39:43 AM ray:
11:39:49 AM nes: yeah i suppose
11:40:01 AM ray: but i need to get to something that no one else can.
11:40:13 AM ray: because otherwise i'm just posing, aren't i?
11:40:17 AM nes: well ur asian, so u've got it covered
11:40:31 AM ray: which part do i have covered?
11:40:50 AM nes: the fact that ur not white
11:41:00 AM ray: which means that i'm unique in being a dandy?
11:41:12 AM nes: ur unique in being an asian dandy
11:41:21 AM nes: actually no that doesnt make sense
11:41:40 AM ray: i think i see partly what you mean... being an anglophile asian dandy is unique.
11:41:42 AM ray: but.
11:41:57 AM ray: even though that's the case, i impersonate less effectively.
11:42:14 AM ray: people can see the difference as dress-up, which is part of the critique, sure, that asians can dress up as brits
11:42:15 AM nes: unless u go for a strictly asian conservative business look
11:42:23 AM ray: ah, but there's more
11:42:30 AM ray: that's where albert comes in
11:42:50 AM nes: ppl in japan already look like they're old fashioned
11:42:55 AM nes: the suits
11:43:10 AM ray: his alter-ego as a romantic nostalgic Shanghai shipping tycoon is actually used as a critique of modern day blandness, even if he doesn't think so
11:43:40 AM ray: he actually found a moment (and place) in history where there actually were asians as western dandies
11:44:07 AM ray: cute
11:44:33 AM ray: so if people see me dressed up and say, "well, that's funny, but it has no historical basis in fact"
11:44:42 AM ray: then i can point to the details in my dress:
11:45:00 AM ray: this tie tack is from the 1930s, which is what shanghai dandies would've worn
11:45:05 AM nes: as if ppl would say that
11:45:24 AM ray: people can think all sorts of things that they never know how to articulate
11:45:53 AM ray: historical legitimacy is important, otherwise, people would be right to say you're just dressing up
11:46:21 AM nes: but u are
11:46:30 AM nes: we always are
11:46:49 AM ray: people would at first think i'm just dressing up, but the revolutionary moment (the moment when they'd have to confront their lack of knowledge) is when i point out that this actually has historical legitimacy and they better acknowledge that
11:46:59 AM ray: of course we're just dressing up all the time
11:47:09 AM ray: but people forget that VERY easily
11:47:20 AM ray: which is why we dandies have to dress up
11:47:29 AM ray: so we can remind everyone that they're dressing up to
11:47:30 AM ray: too
11:47:33 AM nes: if anyone says "well you're jsut dressing up" then u can say "so are you"
11:47:34 AM nes: lol
11:48:00 AM ray: no one ever understands that. they might understand that in a rational way, but few people feel it
11:48:05 AM nes: have u heard of the new wong kar-wai film?
11:48:09 AM ray: just think about the way you talk about hipsters
11:48:13 AM ray: you're bored with them
11:48:24 AM ray: you like more laid back, "authentic" people
11:48:24 AM nes: i'm bored with ultra-hipsters
11:48:44 AM nes: but it's hard to tell who's authentic when uve just met someone
11:48:56 AM ray: my guess is that you're bored with people who constantly show up how we're dressing all the time
11:49:14 AM ray: they're constantly on-guard, and you're bored of people being on-guard, when in fact they're on guard all the time
11:49:19 AM ray: they meaning everyone
11:49:29 AM nes: not only that, but go overboard and hit every element of a style
11:49:32 AM ray: actually, part of my inspiration is from wong-kar wai
11:49:55 AM ray: even the gap is all about boredom down to the smallest detail
11:49:59 AM nes: yes, i love that in 2046, everyone dresses like in the past
11:50:01 AM ray: very thought out
11:50:25 AM ray: days of being wild is the informal first movie to 2046 and in the mood for love
11:50:41 AM ray: in the final scene of days of being wild, there's a long shot of a dandy dressing up
11:50:47 AM ray: that has no connection to the rest of the movie
11:51:04 AM ray: that actor ended up being the star of in the mood for love and 2046
11:51:15 AM nes: it's the same characters
11:51:27 AM ray: but he only shows up for 5 minutes in the first movie
11:51:32 AM nes: neat, never heard of that one
11:51:37 AM ray: so he's not really one of the characters in days of being wild
11:51:40 AM nes: u know.. i'm pretty bored with myself
11:51:50 AM nes: but fashion is apparently expensive
11:51:58 AM nes: especially the ultra-hipster look
11:51:59 AM ray: that's the interesting part... that one's role in a movie can be reduced to a fantastic moment of simply dressing up
11:52:16 AM ray: it doesn't have to be expensive. hipster is boring when it's expensive
11:52:28 AM ray: actually, it's more complicated than that
11:52:32 AM nes: i know. that's why i have a love-hate thing going for it
11:52:56 AM ray: but historically-speaking, many of the people writing about dandyism said that it's about impersonation of aristocracy without actually being one
11:53:23 AM ray: and so part of the basis of dandyism is looking expensive without having spent all that much on it.
11:53:31 AM ray: it's about using aesthetics to make up for money
11:53:40 AM ray: or to show that money is simply the easy way out
11:53:44 AM nes: i dont know if i wanna look expensive
11:54:04 AM nes: sometimes yes, i guess when i'm looking especially ratty and i see someone looking especially spiffy
11:54:25 AM nes: trying to figure out what it is about them that makes them look spiffy and new
11:54:39 AM ray: it's part of the entire plan that when people who ask me where i get things, i always get to tell them that i got it from a vintage store rather than ben sherman or something equally boring
11:54:56 AM nes: i dont even know what ben sherman is
11:54:57 AM ray: spiffy is only one part of the spectrum
11:55:10 AM nes: u know u should be blogging this
11:55:16 AM ray: you can wear a screenprinted tshirt and people will still wonder where you got it
11:55:24 AM ray: if i blog no one gives a shit
11:55:40 AM ray: that's because the people who read our supposed site don't give a shit
11:55:47 AM nes: well u should definitely be recording it somewhere
11:55:50 AM ray: no. one. gives. a. shit
11:56:16 AM ray: and that's what the entire chapism thing is about: it's showing people who don't feel as if they have to give a shit that they ought to.
11:56:35 AM ray: because otherwise the system is going to think for them and through them
11:57:00 AM ray: post this online if you think it's important.
11:57:20 AM nes: i wouldnt' know how to structure it
11:57:35 AM ray: just post it as a conversation. bon does that on her LJ

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Not my type

Monomaniacs, raise your hands!


Tuesday, August 09, 2005

If you were a Death Row cook...

... screw low-fat ingredients.


Sunday, July 31, 2005

hello world

my first blog

Friday, July 22, 2005

HAHAHA talk about cool and useless


i might want one if they had it for the mini.

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Toronto Shows

Friday, July 22
loretta lynn and martha wainwright Massey Hall, $39.50-$59.50

sam roberts, xavier rudd, the weakerthans, buck 65, stars, the be good tanyas, kelly joe phelps, the arcade fire and more, as part of the Hillside Festival, Guelph Lake Island, Guelph, $60 (until Jun 15). Through Jul 24

Monday, July 25
teenage fanclub and the rosebuds Mod Club, $22.50

Thursday, July 28
death from above 1979 Horseshoe, doors 9 pm, $15. And Jul 29 at 9 pm, all-ages matinee and evening show Jul 30.

Tuesday, August 2
coldplay Air Canada Centre, doors 6:30 pm, $57-$71.

Friday, August 5
jason collett Mod Club, 7 pm, $12.

Tuesday, August 9
rufus wainwright, ben folds and ben lee Kool Haus, all ages, doors 7 pm, $34.50

Friday, August 12
lal as part of Friday Funk, Dundas Square (Yonge and Dundas), 6 pm, free.

Thursday, September 15
13 and god featuring the notwist and themselves Lee's Palace, $15.

Monday, September 19
sigur ros Massey Hall, doors 7 pm, $37-$42, on sale Fri (Jul 15), 10am

Tuesday, September 20
royksopp Opera House, $18.50.

Friday, September 23
four tet and hot chip Horseshoe, $15. 416-870-8000,

Sunday, October 9
the new pornographers and destroyer Docks, all ages, doors 7:30 pm, $22.50

Death Star poetry

"He understood, more clearly than anyone else, that the messiness of the real world was precisely the point at which his mathematics should be aimed. As an applied mathematician, he worked out a general theory of control systems and feedback mechanisms, a theory which he called "cybernetics."

"The aphorist positions him or herself as: (1) a sage able to contain worlds in a sentence or two; (2) a self-doubter not qualified to deliver a speech but only a sentence or two. And so it is a voice borne of an opposition. The sage risks pomp, the self-doubter editing his own content out of existence."

"Rather as Walter Benjamin dreamed of a book that would consist of nothing but quotations, so Wittgenstein toyed with the idea of a text that would be composed of nothing but jokes."

"Graham is a burnished idol of the poetry world, having at 54 already pulled off the trifecta of American verse: (1) a major prize (the Pulitzer); (2) a longtime faculty position at the Iowa Writers' Workshop, the Death Star of the modern M.F.A. system; and (3) an appointment at one of the Ivies (in this case Harvard, where Graham now occupies a seat previously held by the Nobel laureate Seamus Heaney)."

"As the weather in a particular location changes, the characters clothes will reflect the weather and the graphic will show rain, snow, airborne particles and changes in cloud cover. Daylight, sunset and current moon phase are also displayed."

Saturday, July 16, 2005

is it just me or has gmail been kinda slow as of late...? i saw some postings of other ppl saying so as well, but they complained about attachments. but for me just a regular 4 sentence email gives me like 30-40 seconds of "sending..." maybe i'm over-exaggerating but it is really long. trust me. it's not cause i'm high right now. so.. uhm, anyone?

anyone reading this? lol

Monday, July 11, 2005

i just added toner as a member to see if we could make this a blogzine type of thing. we'll see how it goes and if well i can make a new one and we can have multiple contributors, that might be a good idea. i'm sleepy. gnite.

Saturday, July 09, 2005

i hafta get myself back in the mode where i remember to post about things that happen to me.

not that this is something that happened solely to me cause there were like a million people there last night at the summer fest thing at dundas square where broken social scene performed for free after that weird fucked up circus giraffes and clowns and bitch diva opera that preceded it. man was that fucked. broken social were jawsome!

there was some site plastered everywhere, something about, i don't remember what the blabla was, i'll just hafta keep my eye out for it. if u remember please tell me!

i hope you evilturtlenecks/film peeps found your way here, cause i need audience support.

also, everyone owes me money.


Thursday, July 07, 2005

OMG i've been bothered by this a lot lately. fucking programs stealing focus.

say you're happily chatting away on msn, and you remember that u hafta visit some page so u click ie and continue typing, and midsentence you get cut off by ie loading. everything wants to be on top, and only in this case is this a bad thing (har har). usually this is just annoying but sometimes a dialogue pops up with yes selected by default and u press the spacebar, or u type a word with a "y" and BAM, you've installed some spyware, or let something thru your firewall or something has happened that you're unaware of. fuckers!

here is the quick and easy fix, u need tweakui - which is available for download from the microsoft website, click here. (this program is also really good for other things, i've had it since windows 95, which i hung on to for far too long, fucking stupid OS, lol.)

under "general" click the checkbox for Prevent applications from stealing focus. and that's it!



Wednesday, July 06, 2005

the following pics are of the windows paintings i did for indigo for their upcoming harry potter 6 launch. this one i did with jess, we hadta do it in reverse on the inside, and it was hard cause the only colour pic we had was the wrong way. it still turned out pretty good i think.

Sunday, July 03, 2005

shot of the outside Posted by Picasa

shot from the inside Posted by Picasa

working from the outside on accidental night vision setting Posted by Picasa

making magic Posted by Picasa
i made this one cause it's connected to picasa and hello to publish pictures... flickr has gone yahoo and the tags are awesome but it's kinda annoying the way it posts pics in the wrong order, so i'm gonna try this here.